Day 5

Well, I'm on day #5 of my new WW and eating healthy - it's been sooooo easy and I even have points left over at the end of the day! I hope that this time I can stick to it. Losing the weight is the easy part for me. The difficult part is dealing with the emotional funk it puts me in.

When I was abused, I was thin and sexy so I have partially blamed myself for being abused. ( I know now that it had nothing to do with me, that it was scumbags to blame)

But........I tend to start freaking out when the weight starts coming off and I think someone is going to get me. And I start feeling better about my image, and that sets off mental garbage and triggers other memories. (I'm not good enough, I'm dumb, I'm really a loser.....all kinds of crap)

So.........I want to work hard at taking care of myself and putting a stop to the damages that have been done to me - and all the negative feelings. It is time to reclaim MYSELF and truly live.

One little step at a time - I can be successful