Poetry

To the Child I Lost

A wonderful new journey that started
in my womb........

Three days of amazing excitement and
happiness sadly turned to darkness and
gloom.

What went wrong? It is such a shame.
In my heart and mind, it is my own
body that is to blame.

I loved you from the moment I learned of
you. I was so happy at the thought of having
not one child, but two.

Sadly, we were unable to meet. Your due date
would be soon, just a few more weeks........

I longed to feel you growing inside me -- to feel
your numerous kicks. I would have been
here for you always, to take care of you when
you got sick.

I miss you so much. I wish you were here. In my
heart always, you will be near........

I love you.

In April 2002 I found out that I was pregnant and then I misscarried just 3 days later. This put me into a bad depression, and months later I wrote this poem in honor of that little life that was not to be.

Soooo Exhausted!

Well, I'm feeling a bit better now that I have my meds again. This past week we've done so much painting on our new house that I'm about in tears from sheer exhaustion! But, nearly all the painting is finished, and we got all the pine in the house all clear coated yesterday! Whew!!
What a job! Especially in the great room with 26' high ceilings!

The flooring is being delivered tomorrow so we can't wait to see it! And the cabinet maker is staining all our cabinets tomorrow too so those will be ready to go in soon.

The fireplace is turning out gorgeous and I'll post some pics when it is done - we are so excited!

I think I'll go sleep the afternoon away now..................

Take your MEDS!!

So how can I complain that I don't feel well if I am not taking my meds like I'm supposed to?
Well, DUH I'm not feeling good!
I take thyroid medication - twice a day (supposed to that is) - and it makes me feel better when I take it like I'm supposed to. I also take Cymbalta for my mental/emotional support - I've been out of those pills for a few days now.

All I feel like doing is sleeping and crying - I feel soooooo horrible! Why do I do this to myself? I honestly don't know! But I am going today to get my Cymbalta refilled and heading into the kitchen now to take my thyroid medication.

*bangs head on desk*

oye!

I hope it kicks in soon!
:(